HELLO!

Saturday, February 23, 2008

alright.
its been awhile now.
first and foremost!

The exams are over!!
yyyeeesss!!!!

okay with that aside..
its been somewhat...
okay for the holidays
i'm at home spending my days on the computer
i wanna go out
but i cant
due to some reasons

but i'll be off to camps and more camps soon!
how???
and i need to work
i need money
money is good

but so far
my thoughts
lately
i've been thinking
of cutting my throat with a knife
jumping down a building
slicing my wrist
drowning myself
standing in the middle of a road, wishing for a car to just run me over
chopping my balls off
getting bitten by a cobra
having my eyes dugged out
getting impaled by a sharp object

yea i know this are unhealthy thoughts
but i'm already driven to madness
i know i shouldnt be thinking like this
but i'm human too
everytime my frustration gets the better of me
i feel like beating something/somebody up
but i control my actions

i need somebody to talk to
i wanna work this out
but the best solution
is for me to stay at home
i dont even know whats going through my mind right now
i dont wanna turn into an introvert
i dont wanna spend my last days in imh

The worst pain one can feel
is the one felt in the heart